I hope you’re having a beautiful day. ♡
Here’s another light-filled ¤ Gem ¤

Photo, haiku by Niki Flow.

this unsent letter

is breaking my heart tonight;

with you in spirit

This week will be about grief.  Dr. Thurman’s advice, to not worry about what the world needs, is really good advice, but I don’t follow it when I make Gems.

Each Sunday, I try to figure out what the overwhelming emotion of the world has been this week.  Then, I try to find an uplifting opposite.

This week, however, there is no opposite.  This comes to you where you are right now, in your pain, takes your hand and sits in quiet understanding.

When our loved one is taken, especially at first, we have no choice but to think about it. No words can undo it. We swim in it, breathe in it, often feel like we’re drowning in it.

Last week, two people I love lost people very close to them. One, I knew and loved too.  The other, I never had the privilege to meet.

When four of my six children were taken, one after another,  grief was a ferocious thing.  Yet life must go on. So, like most of us do, I pushed it down and kept going.  The storm still raged inside, and I ran from it as fast and as hard as I could.  The only thing that reached me and pulled me back was knowing I was loved and that I wasn’t alone.

If you have lived even a short time on this planet, and if you’ve allowed yourself to love, you know exactly what I mean.

So this week I want you to know that you’re not alone.  You are loved.  This will not kill you, though you may feel as though you are dying.  When you feel you can’t go on, please reach out.  Help is all around.  And, even though you may not believe it right now, you won’t be sad forever, not all the time.  You will, however, never be completely free of this grief, so long as you are brave enough to remember.

May you find peace and joy most of all when you remember the love you shared.

♥. Niki Flow

ps 22apr2020:  Meant to add music, as promised. When Eminem announced on Twitter yesterday he got his 12 years C&S coin, I remembered how much I loved this song. It carried through many a dark day.