Two Letters

Graphic art by Niki Flow. Song “Dear God” by Avenge Sevenfold.

A friend asked in a letter,
“How are you today?”
And I wanted to answer
the usual, “Doing well” or “I’m okay.”
But as I began to write
My fingers stopped after “I”
And all of a sudden I knew
I wasn’t going to lie.
So I poured out my heart in a letter.
By the time I got to the end
I realized I felt a bit better.
I asked myself, “Do I send?”
Nothing had changed, yet something had
I put a burden down for a time.
I started another letter.
“I loved your letter. I’m doing fine.”

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I hope you’re having a beautiful day. ♡
Here’s another light-filled ¤ Gem ¤

Photo by Niki Flow.

“Deserves it! I daresay he does. Many that live deserve death. And some that die deserve life. Can you give it to them? Then do not be too eager to deal out death in judgement. For even the very wise cannot see all ends.”

-J..R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring

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I hope you’re having a beautiful day. ♡
Here’s another light-filled ¤ Gem ¤

Photo by Niki Flow

Joy to Write
What do I feel like when I write?
Exuberant. Excited.
Expressive, Informed, and Unique.
Anxiously anticipating a New Creation.
Curious, From the Caustic to the Casual.
Quick with the quip.
Rarely am I at a loss for words.
So I feel privileged to discipline the time
To be specifically expressive,
to really nail the experience in as few words as possible.
I am frequently left with the thought, “Damn John,
“That was pretty good
“We’re going stick with you because we believe you have potential.”  

John Olander

We’re back on IG:
https://www.instagram.com/tizzlovesrowdy/

John is too. Here’s a link to his page.  He doesn’t have content yet but promises he will soon.  https://www.instagram.com/parkhilljohnnyo/

HAPPY NEWS!
John will be appearing on television on PBS soon.  He submitted one of his poems and he will be interviewed on Monday.  We’ll be speaking that day afterward.  John has a job and a place to live now and Monday is his only day off so that’s become our new interview day for Volunteer Biographers.  As soon as I get more information about the day his show will be aired, I’ll let you know.

♥.

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I hope you’re having a beautiful day. ♡
Here’s another light-filled ¤ Gem ¤

Photo by Niki Flow

Anger vs. Heart
Am I angry or just compassionate?
Do I really care?
My heartfelt pronouncements actually SCARE people.
My heart is vibrant light. My heart projects my aura,
My love, my genuine concern.
My anger while well intentioned, backfires.
That feeling is understandable.
But the application of that feeling constricts my heart.
It constrains the veins, the very vessels that fill my body.
That said, there is a place for tough love, hard lessons,
Calling someone out, being called out.
Sometimes a person needs to catch the ruler on the knuckles.
Sometimes the negative is required to birth the positive.
The heartfelt payoff comes when the enemy who was engaged,
stops seeing and knowing everything and becomes a friend.

John Olander, 11/7/2017

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I hope you’re having a beautiful day. ♡
Here’s another light-filled ¤ Gem ¤

Photo by Niki Flow

The Stigma and the Turning Point
The turning point. We are who we are. A myriad of possibilities.
Does it cause me to feel shame that I may be mentally ill?
Absolutely. Should it? Absolutely not.
Determination. Am I closer to dealing with it? Absolutely.
Am I a winner? Absolutely. And not a beginner.
Am I bi-polar? Probably. But in the best exuberant sense of the word.
I AM exuberant. A full joy and anticipation cometh in the morning for each fresh new day.
There are turning points all the time in any person’s life.
One turning point for me was my eviction from Saint Francis.
One turning point for me was the death of Carol Lee.
One turning point for me was Healthy Food for Kids and reminding myself of how great I am when I apply myself and how much I enjoy helping other people do what is right for them.
One turning point for me is accepting the fact that I sometimes need help and I need not be ashamed of it. I AM WORTHY OF IT.
One turning point for me was using my idle time to pick up the trash of others and saying, “Thank you Spirit for letting me serve your earth.” I am blessed every day in some unknown and unexpected way.
One turning point for me was understanding how much support, love, prayers, and loyalty I have from SO MANY others.
One turning point for me is understanding that life will go on in so many ways that are completely beyond my control. So in order to be my most effective, I must present the best John Olander I can be.
Understand that I am not in control and accept the results whether or not it required the help- of others without shame, knowing that I have done my best.
Now that my friends, is a turning point.

John Olander