A friend asked in a letter, “How are you today?” And I wanted to answer the usual, “Doing well” or “I’m okay.” But as I began to write My fingers stopped after “I” And all of a sudden I knew I wasn’t going to lie. So I poured out my heart in a letter. By the time I got to the end I realized I felt a bit better. I asked myself, “Do I send?” Nothing had changed, yet something had I put a burden down for a time. I started another letter. “I loved your letter. I’m doing fine.”
New updates on Missing Benjamin page. Today is four years since he disappeared. Until I can get a handle on this despair, I won’t be publishing new Gems. Any good vibes you feel like sending my way would be appreciated.
Buttons for Benjamin will continue until Ben comes home, but I won’t be keeping records. This is a promise to do at least one daily act of kindness and, where appropriate, leave a Button (I had dozens made) to get the word out about my missing son. If you would like some buttons, let me know.
I hope you’re having a beautiful day. ♡
This year on ¤ under1000skies.org ¤
This is the last Gem of the year. I am especially thankful for the number we ended with this year (221, or 2/21, my son Ben’s birthday). Thank you for all the prayers and good thoughts since he disappeared. Thank you for sharing his page and information “Missing Benjamin.” We are all grateful for everyone who has shared and reached out since Day 1 – March 2, 2016.)
Thank you for sharing a beautiful year with us. May 2020 be the best year for all of us.
It’s Les Misérables week on under1000skies. I recently found the entire book for free online, an unabridged version from 1916.* I did this painting (copied from the famous stage poster) in PSP9 a few years ago.
*Can’t find that link but I did find another from 1887, same translator (Isabel Hapgood), produced on Gutenberg Press. GP does great work.
“The image of Cosette used for the iconic logo of the Les Misérables musical is … Dewynters creative director Russ Eglin adopted the art for the 1985 … First poster or playbill from the original 1985 London production…” -Fonts In Use
Meanwhile, this post from yesterday on Niki Flow goes out today to you, my under1000skies readers. If you follow both you’ve already read it.
I hope you’re having a beautiful day. Thank you, with all my heart.
♥. Niki Flow
Starting on February 28th, every week on Tuesday, there will be a special Gem here on under1000skies under a category called “Tuesday, Full of Grace.” Ben and I were both born on a Tuesday. I feel the grace of love intertwined always with the sadness. I feel the grace of support and compassion from friends. I feel the grace of peace, whenever I reach out, from the source of all Love. So this weekly “Full of Grace” Gem will be a list of the SAoKs (small acts of kindness) the week before. I’ll include a photo for each whenever possible.
The three-year anniversary of Benjamin’s disappearance was on March 2nd. I believe this 365-day challenge will help me stay focused on light, love, and gratitude. It will help me stay connected to others rather than isolating and slipping into grief. It will also get the word out to more people about Ben’s story. On the back of every card will be the words, “Picture him home again, safe at last.” When he was a little boy, Ben’s favorite book, which he asked me to read, again and again, was The Spooky Old Tree with the Bernstein Bears. I loved those story times together. The last line in the book was one he would always say with me as we finished: